I have alway been the one to do more for others than I’ve done for myself, it’s was plenty of times I’ve gotten frustrated with myself because I was so quick to offer help when I needed help myself. I was so quick to loving others unconditionally without loving myself first. I bit off way more than I could chew just because I wanted others to see the good in me and to feel appreciated because I knew what it felt like when I needed help and I had no one. I went on handling more than I could handle out of fear I would be blamed for helping them fall. I was literally bending over backwards for friends and family just to be accepted but then feeling unappreciated. Then I finally just got fed up because every time I needed help NOBODY was around. I learned a deep lesson just a few days ago and it helped me realize in the end all of have is myself. I have to love myself, take care of myself and do for myself. I had to be okay with saying NO. I had to be okay with the thought of being selfish but in a good way. I had to finally step up and take care of me first and I’m okay with being selfish.